Mmmmm....

Hi everyone, my apologies for my silence this past couple of weeks. I have a private blog where I write about my adventures and trials with Mu. I haven't even had time to write in that blog the last couple of weeks, but we had a revelation in our house last week and I thought I'd share the latest entry I made in my private blog. This isn't going to be a regular thing, I'm still a crafty mama but this is worth sharing...

28 April 2010
This is the date of my dad's 62nd birthday. It's also the date that Brigi started to eat. Yes, eat. And all I can think, 5 days later, is, can you believe it? I mean can you believe it??? I can't believe it. I can't wipe the smile off my face. Each day I wake up thinking, it's okay if she stops today. She isn't going to eat today. Then she's hovering over my vegemite toast and is asking for banana. I can't believe it. Nick is in awe, he finds it amazing, and asked me last night if we should stop feeding her after a while. It's as though we are too scared to truly believe it, like we want to jinx ourselves just in case. Vicky (mu's carer at preschool) rang me and told me she had all her banana (a 1/4 of a banana!), 2 chips and a breadstick- for morning tea. She hasn't even had lunch yet. That was all the banana I packed. And the crazy thing is she has barely wanted to touch banana until now. She has always loved sucking on strawberries, but suddenly she wants banana like it's going out of fashion! Nick rang me to see if she was still eating, I said she has upped the anti! I can't believe it. It's a wash of relief and euphoria and disbelief of the past 3 1/2 years. It has been since January 2007 that Mu has not eaten. I just find it overwhelming to think of all the stress and pain we have been through, how sick Brigi must have been feeling all this time, feeling like a failure as a parent, feeling pushed to the brink of broken. It's amazing, I am pinching myself. It's wonderful. I hope I wake up tomorrow and it's still real.